I Was Never A Fan Of Sandcastles Anyway... by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
I Was Never A Fan Of Sandcastles Anyway...
When it comes, it comes in waves.
And they're never the small ones that you can swim away from.
It's the waves that are ten feet tall. The ones that swallow you and pull you down.
The ones that torment and tease you.
They bring you to the bottom of the ocean and let you believe that you may drown; they let you think that it might not be so bad to finally float away.
But right when you look forward to sinking, these waves bring you back to the surface.
And when the air fills your lungs it burns like hell.
Like it's poisoning you.
I'm starting to believe that oxygen isn't all it's cracked up to be.
Some of us might be better off if we gasped f
Do You Hear Me Now? by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
Do You Hear Me Now?
Here I am again. Stuck in the same old spot, catching up with familiar friends.
Tied to the past and forced to live beside memories that cast a shadow around me.
I let myself start a fire, and you stood there and let it burn.
Never once thinking of putting it out.
Maybe I should blame myself.
I was the one who let myself fall.
I should have known the outcome. I should have seen this coming from a mile away.
Yet instead, I closed my eyes and let myself live in the lies you told.
Pretending they were real, trying my hardest to ignore reality; even though it persistently knocked on your locked door.
It's here, in this moment, where I'm
If you came here in search of convincing, you've come to the wrong place.
It doesn't matter how badly I want you or how much I believe that I need you; I won't beg you to stay.
I refuse to get down on my knees.
I won't cry to sway your already made up mind.
I can't tell you I'm worth it, I can't tell you I'll change.
I'm not capable of either.
I'm sorry if that's not what you want to hear.
I'm sorry if I'm not what you expected.
I'm sorry if my pride has gotten in the way.
But I can't let you instill guilt in me.
I'll eventually find my way back to my feet.
I'll eventually overcome all the pain you spoon fed me.
Soon I'll forget t
Come soothe me with your burning bite.
I've been waiting for this. Craving this. Needing this.
Take me away, release me from reality. Just for a little while.
A Possible Escape Plan by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
A Possible Escape Plan
It was today that I realized the walls that once sheltered me, would in turn betray me.
They will soon come crashing down, making it harder and harder for me to carry on.
With no escape planned, I am bound.
It is absolute that I will fail this time.
It is guaranteed that I won't make it out alive.
I heard a sound as I tried to believe in hope.
It was god laughing at me.
After all, I am foolish. For believing in something. For trusting in divine intervention.
There's nothing left to plan for. Nothing left to chase.
The world I own is coming to an end.
And I know I will be forced to carry on, taking punch after punch, never able to sw
The Complications Of Being A Coffee Drinker by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
The Complications Of Being A Coffee Drinker
I slept restlessly last night;
dreamt of things that will always be out of my reach.
I tossed and turned; finally realizing that I will never find what I've been searching for.
And the truth won't allow any comfort.
I woke up this morning, just as tired as I felt the night before.
Walking into the kitchen, where the cold floor would bite my feet.
I searched for the stability I longed for, but my favorite mug lay in the sink.
This morning, I had to reach for a new one.
Opening cabinet doors that I haven't touched in weeks.
Yet I embraced it, hoping it would resonate change.
I was looking forward to something new, some kind of affirm
I used to sleep restlessly while tortured by dreams of you.
I used to let you haunt me, control me, cripple me; just because I hoped you would come back to me.
After months of trying to fill the void you made, I feel empty no longer.
I've finally fallen in love.
I can breathe knowing I no longer have to hope you'll come back.
I can sleep soundly because your voice no longer echoes in the hallways of my mind.
I can finally smile because I know the face staring back at me loves me more than you ever could.
And there is nothing more satisfying than loving her back.
Nothing more incredible than finally letting you go, and realizing that
When I can no longer possess the capability to heal, I begin to fail.
I lose all hope in myself. In humanity. In the ability to function in this world.
When colors begin to fade, gray becomes the only beauty left to set my eyes on.
And as shades disappear, I begin to give into my weaknesses. Letting it blind me.
It's not an easy road; wandering around paths with no sense of direction, no concept of time. No one to lead the way.
But I've been told purgatory gets better with time. That it becomes easier and easier to be alone.
However, no one has had any advice on how to remember to breathe in the mean time.
I Was Never A Fan Of Sandcastles Anyway... by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
I Was Never A Fan Of Sandcastles Anyway...
When it comes, it comes in waves.
And they're never the small ones that you can swim away from.
It's the waves that are ten feet tall. The ones that swallow you and pull you down.
The ones that torment and tease you.
They bring you to the bottom of the ocean and let you believe that you may drown; they let you think that it might not be so bad to finally float away.
But right when you look forward to sinking, these waves bring you back to the surface.
And when the air fills your lungs it burns like hell.
Like it's poisoning you.
I'm starting to believe that oxygen isn't all it's cracked up to be.
Some of us might be better off if we gasped f
Do You Hear Me Now? by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
Do You Hear Me Now?
Here I am again. Stuck in the same old spot, catching up with familiar friends.
Tied to the past and forced to live beside memories that cast a shadow around me.
I let myself start a fire, and you stood there and let it burn.
Never once thinking of putting it out.
Maybe I should blame myself.
I was the one who let myself fall.
I should have known the outcome. I should have seen this coming from a mile away.
Yet instead, I closed my eyes and let myself live in the lies you told.
Pretending they were real, trying my hardest to ignore reality; even though it persistently knocked on your locked door.
It's here, in this moment, where I'm
If you came here in search of convincing, you've come to the wrong place.
It doesn't matter how badly I want you or how much I believe that I need you; I won't beg you to stay.
I refuse to get down on my knees.
I won't cry to sway your already made up mind.
I can't tell you I'm worth it, I can't tell you I'll change.
I'm not capable of either.
I'm sorry if that's not what you want to hear.
I'm sorry if I'm not what you expected.
I'm sorry if my pride has gotten in the way.
But I can't let you instill guilt in me.
I'll eventually find my way back to my feet.
I'll eventually overcome all the pain you spoon fed me.
Soon I'll forget t
Come soothe me with your burning bite.
I've been waiting for this. Craving this. Needing this.
Take me away, release me from reality. Just for a little while.
A Possible Escape Plan by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
A Possible Escape Plan
It was today that I realized the walls that once sheltered me, would in turn betray me.
They will soon come crashing down, making it harder and harder for me to carry on.
With no escape planned, I am bound.
It is absolute that I will fail this time.
It is guaranteed that I won't make it out alive.
I heard a sound as I tried to believe in hope.
It was god laughing at me.
After all, I am foolish. For believing in something. For trusting in divine intervention.
There's nothing left to plan for. Nothing left to chase.
The world I own is coming to an end.
And I know I will be forced to carry on, taking punch after punch, never able to sw
The Complications Of Being A Coffee Drinker by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
The Complications Of Being A Coffee Drinker
I slept restlessly last night;
dreamt of things that will always be out of my reach.
I tossed and turned; finally realizing that I will never find what I've been searching for.
And the truth won't allow any comfort.
I woke up this morning, just as tired as I felt the night before.
Walking into the kitchen, where the cold floor would bite my feet.
I searched for the stability I longed for, but my favorite mug lay in the sink.
This morning, I had to reach for a new one.
Opening cabinet doors that I haven't touched in weeks.
Yet I embraced it, hoping it would resonate change.
I was looking forward to something new, some kind of affirm
I used to sleep restlessly while tortured by dreams of you.
I used to let you haunt me, control me, cripple me; just because I hoped you would come back to me.
After months of trying to fill the void you made, I feel empty no longer.
I've finally fallen in love.
I can breathe knowing I no longer have to hope you'll come back.
I can sleep soundly because your voice no longer echoes in the hallways of my mind.
I can finally smile because I know the face staring back at me loves me more than you ever could.
And there is nothing more satisfying than loving her back.
Nothing more incredible than finally letting you go, and realizing that
When I can no longer possess the capability to heal, I begin to fail.
I lose all hope in myself. In humanity. In the ability to function in this world.
When colors begin to fade, gray becomes the only beauty left to set my eyes on.
And as shades disappear, I begin to give into my weaknesses. Letting it blind me.
It's not an easy road; wandering around paths with no sense of direction, no concept of time. No one to lead the way.
But I've been told purgatory gets better with time. That it becomes easier and easier to be alone.
However, no one has had any advice on how to remember to breathe in the mean time.
I'd give the sky, or something like it by Aiden-Luna, literature
Literature
I'd give the sky, or something like it
I followed you home with my headlights one night
You didn't notice me, but I saw your pupils dilate and detract
Like you could smell me coming for you, a disaster, the birth of
A long, dark summer, skin slick with sweat and the air
Full of the smell of rot.
I can feel the way you shift in your sleep thinking
Of the patterns of my bloodstream like the markings
Of a black widow on my stomach can feel the way you
Wake panicked, fists landing solidly on the cold side of the bed.
I am not hardened to this - my body is soft and sweet, lacking
An exoskeleton, lacking the scales of another genus;
My eyes are grey and heavy always
I'm a molting shell,
I'm another violent storm,
I'm another loveless creep,
I'm obsessed with my own reincarnation,
my mortality, my fatality,
rip the skin to remind myself I still have blood
it hasn't frozen over, wasn't sucked out,
oil well, drill baby drill,
pump it to the surface,
I'm still alive, restore some color to my dying face,
pallor, paler and paler
even though the sun burns,
all I feel is winter
I am alone,
god I feel like tearing my guts out,
I'll let someone else clean it up
god I feel like tearing my guts out,
trails upon trails
it's what I am,
ribbons, bloody bloody ribbons
don't pretend I'm anything more
Don't ever forget.
Don't ever forget how to live for others.
You don't have to be self-sacrificial or selfless...
Just never forget to always consider,
To always try.
For in this life--
Your lover may abandon you;
Your friends may abandon you;
Your family may abandon you;
Your god may abandon you;
And even, yes, You may abandon you.
But you must never abandon them.
If you hold onto others,
You will always remain--in some small way--
True and real.
In that way, with them,
You can never forget yourself.
L'OMBRE I - SHADOW I (+ audio reading) by Exnihilo-nihil, literature
Literature
L'OMBRE I - SHADOW I (+ audio reading)
(English adaptation below) version audio ici
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L'ombre I
Quand vous verrais-je au sortir des songes et des tombes il ne reste que des lisières
Frangées d'or et d'herbe coupez vos désirs d'au-delà lorsque l'écume affolée efface la tempête et
Si vos yeux glacés sur mes mains stupéfaites j'aurai voulu vos chants sous des feux de
Tambours et l'ombre de vos danses enroulée sur mes cuisses un éclat de vermeil la
Ménade mâchant le coeur de nos combats des tonnes de serpents silencieux sur le sol et la crête
Des dunes rayée d'horizon morne votre bouche à la lune reste la nuit vacante et mes rêves
Blanchis l'automne est déjà là dans
When I was a child
the wild and crazy
used to speak
of waking up old.
Reverend 'Dead-eye' would preach
every Sunday morning
of acid trips and street fights,
where motorcycles roared.
My old man would chime in
with white labels and table tops,
dancing ladies
and rotating doors;
trips to Daytona, Sturgis, and Pikes Peak,
the Iron Horse
and more.
They forgot to slow down,
hard pressed to the edge
burning through the only life
they knew.
It's that machine mentality
with no specified expiration,
as much in their day
as our own.
So we roll like there's no tomorrow,
we never look back
until our bodies
grow too ti
I saw your face
in the post office
again.
It was one of those
eight by elevens
with black lettering,
It was an old picture
as if your chin
had not grown up yet
and your hair
framed your cheeks
as if to say
I, too, am a visitor.
They spelled your name wrong -
there are two A's in Isaac
and you looked
like you had been caught
wearing someone else's skin -
the scar at your temple
was a faded moon,
crescent and grey at the corner
and I could tell
you had not slept
in years.
Look, remember when I looked like this?
And now you say I'm a stranger with my
Strange beds, strange heads these convoluted
Ideas of fame, these dreams I'm chasing alone
But only if alone means without you, which
It doesn't. You anchor, you weight on my spine
Bones splintered and aching from your presence.
I'm not beautiful but I'm breathing salt water and
Choking on old wounds I thought had long healed
You scab-picker, you knife - divine, sublime making me
Think of birds and telephone lines. I am automatic writing
Every line and word in this sad, sorry world was written
Just for you, and just for me finding you, sitting h
Killing The Loneliness by EscapingThePast, literature
Literature
Killing The Loneliness
Who says you can't be happy with a gun to your head?
Baby you're a million miles away and I'm tired of waiting.
Tired of holding onto this hope that will always let me down.
I can't continue on searching when there's nothing left to look for.
No one is waiting in the dark for me.
Maybe there wasn't meant to be a light in my stygian world.
I can't help but believe that I'm supposed to go blind from this; that my eyes were never supposed to adjust. That I'd be left to decay alone with no one to cover their nose from the smell.
And I will never be alright with that.
But the faster I accept the inevitable, the easier it'll be to pull th
"So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was a drizzle and she was a hurricane."
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The Boondock Saints, Underworld, Pan's Labrymth, The Departed
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Evanescence, Chevelle, Paramore, Red, Evans Blue, 10 Years, Deftones
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It's salt you pour into my wounds, swearing that one day it'll cure me…
But I can't shake the feeling that this smell is only infection.
And your poison lips quiet my tongue. Leading me to believe that one day it'll all change.
That one day, some day, it'll be your heart beating in my hand. And not the bullshit stories you feed me.
Well darling, I can only hope that this is true.
That one day I'll have your heart resting in my hand.
Resting so soundly, beating softly, full of love.
And that's when I'll tighten my grip and break it into pieces.
You may call that cruel, but I think it's nothing short of bravery.
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